There are moments in life when you look back and realise you tolerated more than you should have.
But in that moment, it didn’t feel like tolerance.
It felt like patience. Like empathy. Like giving someone—or something—you deeply cared about the space to grow. It felt like commitment.
Maybe it was for the sake of children.Maybe it was for the sake of something you had poured your heart and years into building.
And so you stayed. You adjusted. You understood. You hoped.
What makes it so perplexing is this: you don’t always know, in the moment, that a line has been crossed.
You tell yourself that effort matters. That things can get better. That love, or hard work, or consistency will eventually shift something.
And isn’t that what we’re taught? That staying and trying is what gives things a real chance?
But time, and distance, bring a different kind of clarity. Talking to people who have different perspectives also helps.
You begin to see the moments where boundaries blurred.Where empathy slowly turned into allowance.
Where patience quietly became self-neglect.
There’s a popular idea that says you can measure self-love by how quickly someone walks away from a unhealthy situation.
But it isn’t that simple.
Leaving quickly is not always strength.And staying is not always weakness.
Sometimes, staying is an act of hope.Sometimes, it is responsibility.Sometimes, it is love.And sometimes… it is just not knowing any better yet.
Perhaps the real measure is not how fast you leave, but how deeply you begin to understand yourself.
How you learn to recognise the difference between holding on with intention and holding on at the cost of yourself.
Because the truth is—you did what you knew, with the awareness you had.
And growth is not about judging that version of you. It’s about becoming someone who will see it sooner next time, and choose differently when it matters.
A Very Thought provoking, Monologue
ReplyDelete“What We Don’t Say When We Say We Stayed”
We say we stayed because we cared.
Because we were patient. Because we believed.
And maybe that’s true.
But not complete.
Because somewhere in that staying,
we ignored parts of ourselves too—
our triggers, our silences,
the lines we kept shifting.
Because sometimes,
we weren’t just tolerating them.
We were avoiding ourselves.
And maybe growth isn’t just knowing when to leave—
but understanding how we showed up
before we had to.
Because sometimes,
it was never you vs them.
It was both of you
vs things you didn’t yet know how to name.
And some day - time, distance tells you it's not important to drown together but choosing oneself is not wrong either.